Monday, March 27, 2006

沒有工作, 那我是誰?

紐約時間凌晨十二點,
獨自坐在桌上,望著還沒熄燈的林肯中心,
大米哥早已不省人事,鼾聲大呼。
又跟上海的工廠溝通了將近兩小時,
從來不曾覺得溝通是一件累人的事,
但現在全身的每個細胞都在喊累...
不就是為了幾片不鏽鋼的材質和表面處裡,
瑣碎的細節啊...
想起大學時代有個教授的口頭禪:
trivial, trivial, trivial.

離開了朝九晚五的工作後,
突然生活少了什麼,
滿足不了膨脹不得了的自我,
想短時間闖出自己的路,
想證明和炫耀自己的存在。

但,難道人生只是工作,只是賺錢嗎?
沒有工作,那我是誰?
“拖著死屍的是誰?“

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

MUST plough on... your efforts will materialize... but besides that... let the smell of spring reassure you of your existance... and what a gift that is...

Anonymous said...

不要急啊,很多事需要慢慢來。信任和默契一開始就有當然最好,否則化些時間和耐心慢慢可以養成的。
紐約是春天了吧,多了一些可以自由安排的時間,多好...

Mini-DV said...

我也來充當妳的姊妹
(反正被罵 GAY 習慣了)

國父革命十一次才成功
除了加油還是再加油...

加油...加油...加油...

Mini-DV 共勉之...
三月二十七日於曼哈頓

Powderpuff said...

I've learned and came to realize that Health & Happiness are the most important things in life. And you got both!!
cheer up!! Life is full of surprises.
Go read my blog, and you can see how bored I am at work. At least you got your freedom when I don't.

eatgod said...

As in 霍元甲 Movie, it talks about being 天津第一, then what?

Master Sheng-Yen Said, don't think about money in your head, but do have a lot of money in the bank.

共勉之...

riceman said...

I didn't know that I snore. Sorry! You are doing great. Keep going!

Leigo said...

早上起來看到大家的鼓勵,心好暖。不管是成功也好,一事無成也好,會充滿感恩的,清楚的繼續走下去,踏實築夢。謝謝大家ㄛ..

ㄟ.. Quincy前輩... 是Eueu把拔嗎?

Anonymous said...

我不知道這麼說會不會被妳K啦... but i just wanna share one of my late thoughts... that perhaps it's okay to sit with our angst and uncertainty for a bit, because life is really recorded and shaped by its "process," the minute-by-minute, and not so much about the trumpets and banners or the moment of conquering the summit... Maybe the whole point (besides the practical aspect) is in experiencing the doing, more so than the getting.

the "getting" of course is nice, but that i have no doubt you'll have. you also have our ears and full support.

enjoy the "birthing" of your company. :)

Leigo said...

Anny - 說得真好,謝謝都來不及,這麼會K呢!何況你後台那麼大,我想k也不敢,孫媽會用羽毛拍k回來。

MagPie said...

Enjoy the process! Think about the processes you've gone through in archieving everything that you've archieved by now: coping with life when you moved to a new country, surving at Cooper and actually graduated in whole, dealing with workers on construction site and gaining their respect, most importantly, going through life with Jimmy, the Huang family and your friends. Think about what you value most from all these processes...like what Anny said: is it the trophies and praises by others? Could it be what you've learned about life, yourself and the love from ppl who care and who you care.

Enjoy every step in life and don't try to hard in proving yourself or impressing others. Be truthful to yourself and to LIVING! (BEWARE: LIVING =/= HAVING A JOB)

Everyone that cares about you are already awed by your courage in making the decision. You have already proven that you take your life seriously and "personally" (instead of basing on how the "main stream" values it).

Chien Chien said...

行到水窮處,坐看雲起時...

Just the other day, I ask sister what does she want to do when she grows up. She thought to herself for a minute, then said
"I want to be a doctor."
"Doctor? But you'll have to study ALOT to be a doctor."
"Then I'll be a tooth doctor." "Huh?"
"...because I went there many times and they always have candy and new toothbrushes."
She said, smiling.

To me, that is what life is about.

You took the road less travel by, Lei, so you are bound to run into difficulties. But like Chao Bobo said, look at your new venture as something more than a job, more than money-making. Look at it as an adventure. Always remember to stop and smell the rose.

"...日出喚醒清晨 大地光彩重生
讓和風拂出的音響
譜成生命的樂章"